Know Your Fears
Years ago I experienced deep
emotions, unaware of its impact and weight. I was absolutely afraid of failure. Deep
inside a voice was telling me that I would not be loved if I failed. Growing up I had
a strong desire to receive endless love and support. I never felt I received that support. Because
I did not see
it, I continued to feel that I needed to be and do better the next time. Part
of the family patterns that surrounded me was rarely displayed, anyone
admitting a mistake, even years afterwards – in spite of the results. So,
my programming was set, always strive
to be the best, but never receiving the rewards. And,
even when a mistake or undesired results happened, do not admit it to anyone. Years of trying to
get everything lined up to be perfect handcuffed me, until I shifted my mindset.
The old saying of getting
your ducks in a row seemed to fit. The trouble is . . . what is the
probability of getting ducks in a row? Even if you can, they probably will not stay
there for long. So,the cycle continued and nothing was
achieved.
Over the years I attended
countless motivational, business, and spiritual events that left me charged up
on one level, but I would be kicking myself on the inside. I felt that I could
have done a better job presenting the material. But, I did not allow myself the opportunity to be
visible, put myself out there, for fear that it would not be perfect.
There came a time when the
caterpillar could no longer stay as is and struggled to become
what it knew itself to be. Finally the butterfly is beautiful and free of
the cocoon.
In recent years I have taken opportunities, starting out with
small steps, in which I built up my self-confidence and let go of
perfectionism. I began to take on bigger challenges and
stages.
What lies within you that
eats you up? Knowing that if your passion was left unfulfilled, how would it
affect the rest of your life?
If you can’t make a mistake, you can’t make
anything. ~ Marva Collins
You may be
interested in reading, ‘Take It Off
the Mat‘, Yoga Philosophies in Life &
Business.