What Lies Within You? Afraid to Fail!
A few years ago I
experienced deep emotions, I was absolutely afraid of failure. Deep inside a voice was telling me that I
would not be loved if I ever fail.
Growing up I had a strong desire to receive endless love and
support. I never felt I received the
support I was looking for. Because I did
not see it, I continued to feel that I needed to be and do better the next
time. Part of the family patterns that
surrounded me was rarely if ever displayed, anyone admitting a mistake, even
years afterwards – in spite of the results.
So, my programming was set, always strive to be the best—but not
receiving the rewards, and even when a mistake or undesired results happen – do
not admit it to anyone. Years of trying to get everything lined up to be
perfect handcuffed me, until I shifted my mindset.
The old saying of getting
your ducks in a row seemed to fit. The
trouble is . . . what is the probability of getting ducks in a row? Even if you can, they will probably not stay
there for long. So, the cycle continues
and nothing is achieved.
I have attended countless
motivational, business, and spiritual events that left me charged up on one
level, but I would be kicking myself on the inside. I felt that I could have
done a better job presenting the material.
But, I did not allow myself the opportunity to be visible, put myself
out there, for fear that it would not be perfect.
There came a time when
the caterpillar could no longer stay as is and struggled to become what it knew
itself to be. Finally the butterfly is
beautiful and free of the cocoon.
In recent years I have
taken opportunities, starting out with small steps, in which I built up my
self-confidence and let go of perfectionism.
I began to take on bigger challenges and stages.
What lies within you that
eats you up, and knowing if your passion was left unfulfilled, how would it
affect the rest of your life?
If you can’t make a mistake, you can’t make anything. ~ Marva
Collins
You may be interested
more on the topic of perfectionism, Attracting
Prosperity and Abundance, Part 6.